I feel I am numb right now. A couple of hours ago, I heard my brother screaming inside his room, and I knew right then and there that he had a fight with his girlfriend. I found the irony automatically, we both had problems of our own tonight and it was on the same wavelength. However, I can't help but be envious of him. He's screaming away on the phone while here I am smiling, cleaning my room and feeling really confused. I wish I was in his position at the moment where he knew what he felt and did what he have to do to express it; wish i was like that screaming on the phone, being fuming mad..being the normal ME. Right now, I feel I am not me. And I am hiding right now behind a smile.