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piCtuRes of MeH
** A song that I can relate to. (^___^) ** pUt iN miNd *well....if you're tired to email me.
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Ma. Romillie
Mae Lu
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For those people who know me too well, they'll be shock for the change
that I did a week ago. I finally had my hair chopped! A move I don't
normally do but something just made me feel that it is about time.
I have never felt more like a new person. The new 'do really suited me,
well, not just by what people say but that's what I also felt. Whenever
I had my haircut in the past, I'd always have this over-reacting
tantrums (ask Sandy). I'll totally do a drama and not stop ranting of
whether to cut my hair or not..and in the end, I'll only have it cut
for about a couple of inches (sa mga pbb adik: remember Say?
grbe..ganun dyud ako...iiyak pa!).
(The New 'do) Right
now, a drastic change was really made for my hair. (in the words of my
hairdresser: "ayan, hindi ka na c Marina, c Claudine ka na! ang habang
tlga nung hair mo...") Man! She was actually scared when she showed me
how long/much hair she's gotta cut off. All I said was: "OK!" then
*smiles*. Even I was shocked with my reaction! 
It was definitely MORE than what I normally would have asked to be cut.
My
new hair actually showed a new me. A few people had notice that I was
exuding a new aura. I don't just feel light (ang bigat ng buhok ko
eh..bwahaha) but it also made me feel that changes in my life doesn't
necessarily means changing myself and my principles/beliefs. Changes
also means improvements...giving myself a chance to have the balls to
face something new, to make more mature decisions and act more maturely.
After 5 months of training, dozen rounds of jogging around agro field and usep ground, hundred gallons of water chugged down, being grilled under the sun, losing a lot of weight, shared laughs, anger, stress, jokes, pranks, irritation and a lot more emotions than we could ever think of we could share. We have finally made it. Disc is it. The hard work will be put into test. 
Ultimate STDs, the David of the Ultimate Frisbee are coming to Manila to face the Giants or should I say the Goliaths of the sport. Will we conquer? Will we be able to make our seniors (ie Manong Francis, J.Lo, Kuya Ipe, Kash..jst 2 name a few, & all the others who taught us ultimate) proud? Will we pee in our pants..err...skorts/shorts after seeing many "that-really-tall-guys" in the field? (figurative speeching!!!!
) There's only one way to find out and we'll only have to wait 5 more days. 3 more practices to go.
Whatever the outcome of the tournament may be. I'm really proud of what our team has become. It may not be perfect but goddamn we compose of gorgeous, attractive, intelligent, amazing people you could ever meet. (bwahahaha...bias galore!!!!). A great friendship emerged from this great sport and I can't feel any regrets ever playing and taking this sport by heart.
If we can't beat 'em in the field, we'll beat 'em by our good looks and "assets"!!!! bwahaha.
GO STD!!!! Spread the Virus.....ULTIMATE SOUTH TEAM DURIAN!!!
How come in life we don't have an eject button? We always get in situations where we wish we were out of? Like boring parties, stupid companies, irritating conversations, embarrasing moments and the likes. A normal person with a common sense would just simply answer that everybody goes through with it..."just charge it to experience" right? Ha! Easily said than done. In a situation where your beliefs, principles, dreams, plans, goals, and promises are being challenged, what are you to do? First, you are challenged because you too wanted to be in that situation, well, not really want but you also found satisfaction in that position in your life. You didn't do all your means to be there but it just happened. It's one of those surprises life slaps you in the face and wakes you up that not everything you wanted or planned is what you really wanted. You are stuck in a confusing state, a state where you are happy yet scared to be too happy. Scared that maybe this happiness is just temporary...you are dumb-founded! You know something...yet you don't know what to do with that knowledge because again...you are stuck! Stuck like a rabbit in a hole. Stuck like a cork in a wine bottle. Stuck like glue in paper. You do nothing but wait. Wait for what? For rain to come in a drought? We'll see...the answer still lies in ones self. In what one really wants and needs. In what one really risks to take that certain happiness. in what one wishes to be and to be with...
Blabbering inside my head, my mind's totally pissing me off. Im a third year college student and im already figuring out what i wanna do after graduation. I have plans but still I dont know if it will probably come true. So many questions are running through my head. Will my passion lead me to a bright future or will actually be a waste of time?
I know it'll all be in the hands of my dad. Of course, my official financer has the final word on it. wahehe. Studying in a different country is definitely not as easy as i just dreamt it was. I talked with my dad about it before and gladly, he agreed on it but it was a pretty long time ago and my dad may suddenly have an amnesia when i bring it up.
I want to talk to him about it but I found myself tongue-tied when i plan to bring it up. I really wanna do this though. I want to feel the independence of a foreign student. To realize that im mature enough to live on my own and learn new things. I know it's not really hard to tell this to my dad but i dont know why im having a hard time. It makes me uneasy to just think about it. I gotta have the courage to do this if im really convinced that i wanna pursue this dream.
Now, im wishing that im graduating this school year, to finish college and talk to my parents about my future plans. They know it already but i dont know if they forgot about it or they're still not thinking about it now because i still have a year to go?
As I observe the Korean foreign students at our school, I cant help but get jealous at them. I actually what to approach them and have a conversation with them on how it feels like living and studying at a foreign country. Im starting to imagine myself living alone on a foreign country, living in a dormitory and actually talking to people in a different language rather than my native tongue and i actually like it rather than being afraid.
Just this afternoon at the grocery, I started taking imported noodles and junk foods from china. In my mind, im actually convincing myself to get used to these food so that if ever i really do get to study in china, i wont be shocked with the food and get used to it easily. Im already getting set on buying books about china and the food. I want to program myself to not have a culture shock and learn things about china so that i won't have a hard time if ever i really do get to go.
It makes me anxious to not know what my life will be after graduation What would still come my way with a year and a half to go at school. Will I still have this great passion to learn my roots and learning the culture, food and language or will something or someone destroy this passion and make me turn away from it? I dont know why but its killing me slowly to have these questions in my mind...nobody can help me but myself to answer these questions. My destiny is in my hands and I know i just need more time to think things out and start with my first step on getting this.
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A memorable event it was for us, Econ Students. Not only were our contestants for the Dafecos Pageant bagged the 1st runner up, but we had an opportunity to bond with each other.
I tell you, planned gimmicks aren't really that fun compared to unplanned gimmicks especially on a Saturday Night, the first night of the Oktoberfest. We had a really tiring day, starting at 7:00am and up until to 10:00pm at USEP for the Dafecos (Davao Federation of Economic Society) and a non-stop events that we had to join. I couldn't believe were we got all our energies that night.
Happening like this truly made me feel like a teeanger, dancing all night and having fun the entire time with my friends. Even though I was the only one who didn't drank, oh yes, I was the good girl that night because I was afraid to drive wasted..we had an awesome time! (^__^)
Yet, I was the one who totally acted like a drunk chick! Wahehe...I actually left one pair of my shoe at the sidewalk while walking towards Kaye's car! (Take note: My heel got stuck and I stepped on the cemented sidewalk bare foot) It's was totally weird, my classmates were teasing me because I was the "others" in the group because I didn't drank and yet I was the one acting that way!!! (^__^)
A night I definitely won't forget...hmm...maybe because we were the only group in the club dancing and taking picutres of ourselves the whole time!!! wahehe...and ofcourse, witnessing a guys to guys action...when i mean guys...i do mean it! watching 4 of our guy friends dancing "dirty" to each other was soooo funny and totally crazy!
I really do hope we'll have the same experience when we have the opportunity to go out. The laughs that we all shared that night was so infections that I couldn't believe these people would make me laugh my friggin' ass off the entire time!
Oooppsss.....Did we do something naughty!?? bwahaha...(^__^)
We're ruling the streets of Davao City!!
Can't deny this, but this song totally struck me! bwahaha...maybe because it pretty much described my life!?? bwahaha...but i'm not as dramatic as this song though but i can say i could totally relate to it. (^__^) Laging bigo laging sawi sa pag ibig Gusto ko lang maranasang umibig May birthday cake ka nga Tatanggapin na lang ba ang malupit
TUMATAKBO
By: Mojofly.
Minamalas o kay sakit
May balat nga ba ako sa pwet
Mabuti pa ang tindera sa aming kanto
Nakakainggit TL ang sweet nila ng
Kanyang nobyo
Tamaan ni kupido
Gusto ko lamang maranasan ang langit
Tumibok muli ang puso ko
Tumatakbo ang oras naiiwan na ako
Ng panahon
Di na nagbago bawat araw pare pareho
Parang kahapon
Ngunit wala naman kandila
May Christmas tree na malupet
Wala naman dekorasyong pansabit
Sadyang ganyan ang aking buhay
Walang kasing tamlay
Ayoko sanang tumandang nagiisa
Na tadhana o kayay
Tatanggapin na lang ba na akoy
Sadyang hingi pinagpala
Tigilan na ang drama
Punasan na ang luha
Life can be fun or boring. I can't consider my life as fun as others because I am typing this entry on a Saturday night, duh! bwahaha...its a bit low to just have that an example to prove my life to be boring though. I believe that life should have both. It gotta be fun and boring at times. In my situation, i just realized that I chose my life to be a bit boring. There were quite a few opportunities that came my way recently that girls my age are dying to have or maybe just dreaming and not actually dying. wahehe.(^__^)
I don't know if its a big thing though but I had 2 offers that would have changed my life, i gotta admit, i was damn scared when it was offered of course and so I turned it down. One was to be the Ms. Dafecos...i would be representing our school against other schools...its a "beauty pageant" for economic students and i gotta admit...it blew my mind because I definitely have no plans of joining such thing. bwahaha...good thing im good at ditching things i dnt want and so i got outta it even if i was already voted. *evil smile* Hope I could still get out of it next year though 'coz they are threating me that i cant get out of it next year. *deep praying*
The second one was for an independent film, my classmate was pursuading me to join this screening for an indie film to be joined at the Guerrilla Film Fest this year because the producer, director and writer was telling him to get me and pursuade me to join. Man...I certainly have no plans of joining those kind of things..bwahaha...love story pa tlga! a BIG no no for me...if it was a scary movie, i would definitely join...im a self-proclaimed twin sis of Sadako.....bwahahaha.(^__^) until now...he's still bugging me bout it...duh! may kissing scene pa tlga...PIMP tlga yun! ano ako? bale!??? =p
But again..I am not declaring my life to be boring...anyways, it's pretty fun..i guess...but of course, life isn't purrrfect and there are a lot of bumps thats in my way. Yet...these opportunities that came my way totally made me laugh my brains out!!!! bwahahaha...wla lng...natatawa lng me...know why? because there's a big question in my mind ever since this happened....WHY ME!???? bwhahaha....kakawindang lng...mdyo baduy kc noh..wahehe..so not me.(^__^)
my sister ~ who had been heart-broken in a span of one month...when it rains, it pours my dear sister "...Is it your heart my berks (sandy,andy,mumay,jill,jb & bon2) ~ wow...we just had our 8th year anniversary last month, though we haven't had the time to celebrate...im glad you guys are my friends!!!!! (^__^) "I'll be there for you "Papa Jeff" ~ hmm...seein' him at the gym makin me wanna sweat out more..bwahaha...*stalker alert*=p "...you know that I have always dream of you E.F.R ~ you are totally a big ? I feel like a loser to have a crush on you...wahehe...shame on me! "...Ayoko na sa'yo, ayoko na sa'yo Gabriel aka "angel" ~ there's just something about you...i guess, i admire everything bout it. "...I look at you looking at me ? ~ wahehe..of course...to that someone who will come into my life...a song in the future for us. (baduy!!!!) "...Well it's for you and everyone Meh-ahn ~ i gotta have a song for myself....i just love this song and I declare it as thre song of my life!!!! (^__^) "...When I fall in love I take my time Inspired by the blog entry of my ohh so dorky sister...wahehe...i also had the liking of posting line of a song dedicated to the people who are surrounding me and had a part of my life. (^__^)
Oh, that's breakin' all in pieces
Makin' you cry
Makin' you feel blue..." ( tell me where it hurts, MYMP)
When the rain starts to pour
I'll be there for you
Like I've been there before
I'll be there for you
'Cause you're there for me, too.." ( I'll be there for you, Rembrandts)
Only you, in the day, in the night
Every waking hour of my life..." (get me, MYMP)
May balitang lalaki ang type mo..." ( ayoko na sa'yo, Mahat @ Mura)
Now I know why they say the best things are free
Gonna love you boy you are so fine
Angel of Mine..."( angel of mine, Monica)
I thought i've searched the world in vain
Now look at me, And the search is done
We will never be the same,
Not the same..." ( just a smile, Barbie Almalbis)
There's no need to hurry when I'm making up my mind
You can turn off the sun but I'm still gonna shine
and I'll tell you why..." ( the remedy, Jason Mraz)
How come when you feel the worse that's when the greatest moment of your life happens? Is it God telling me not to keep my hopes up and stop imagining things and let things go by? Maybe. All the time, when something great happens, it always caught me off guard and this is from a girl who has a full 500 yards radar whenever my crushes (take note: c-r-u-s-h-e-s) are around! (^__^)
I never thought that tonight would be my most memorable gym experience...ok maybe for now! wahehe. Again, im blabbering about "Papa Jeff"...i know it's not a surprise anymore. This is more than eye contact and my very seemingly senseless blabbering and fantasizing.
I wanna write every detail here because I want to feel the feeling I have right now when I read this entry in the future. wahehe...so this may be a pretty long entry. Here goes...
Another day at the gym, another day of sweating out, I woke up late (what's new!??) and I haven't packed my gym clothes. So as hurriedly as i can, i got the first jogging pants i saw and scrambled to get my things for school. After classes, I went to the gym, as i was letting my bag get expected by the guards, i heared a car pull over...bwahaha...it's the famous violet car, yes..it was "his". That's when i realized that it'll be another happy day at the gym!!! wahehe...(^__^) As i changed my clothes, i realized i packed my pe jogging pants which i wore from high school...it's kinda big has a little hip-hop vibe on it and i liked it but its not my gym pants coz its a bit of 'childish' bwahaha...not 'lady like ei!??(^__^) I also packed my not so comfortable shirts...man, i totally blew it but i got no choice but to wear this shirts and hope things would go well. Anyways, as usual...did my thing at the gym and bust my butt off.ü
After 2 hours of working out (and chatting!!! wahehe) i went to the locker room and changed my shirt. When i went to the reception, "papa jeff" was there and his friend who was also a friend of mine. This friend of his always teases me and we were the ones who always distracts each other when trying to workout (take note: he's not cute so i dont feel awkward around this guy and he's kinda like my link to be a bit closer to 'papa jeff' wahehe.) I don't know, i feel a little childish (as if i'm not childish! bwahaha) at that time that when "papa jeff" asked the receptionist, ate nelia, for a pass i was doin' a little whisper telling her that "buti pa ako noh may card hindi ko na kelangan ng car pass". They were laughin' and she teased me that im such a "palaaway" (hope i scored a point there!).
Would you believe i didn't noticed that i was already with 'him' and his friend goin' towards the elevator!?? oh yeah...i only realized that when i was goin inside the elevator hurriedly and didn't noticed that i cut in between 'his' friend and the buttons, i pressed 2 immediately and just gave him a smile. His friend commented that "ah...siningitan pa ako!" i just teased him back "sus...namiss mo lang nga ako eh!" i noticed that 'papa jeff' was just looking at us and giggling with our stupid conversation. Then as i was just staring blankly, he suddenly looked down and noticed by jogging pants which i totally forgot that i was wearing it and not my usual pants. He said in Bisaya "oww..kuyawa sa jogging pants oi!" (translation: "wow....that's some jogging pants!") I looked down and i just said laughing that just let it be..it was what i was wearing for my pe classes before. We were already goin outside the parking lot walking towards the elevator when i realized that the three of us were already havin a conversation!!!!
His friend asked me where my dad was and that he left the gym before me. I said that he left early and i think he didn't even said goodbye to me. "Papa Jeff" then suddenly joked me and said that my dad doesn't care for me anymore and he was teasing me nah. OMG!!!! I was just laughing with them but if he only knew it was a mixed with kilig na!!!! (^__^)
When we were already in the carpark 'his' friend told him that he'll wait there below because his car was already parked close to the exit. I was walking towards my car which was a few more feet away when i realized that 'papa jeff' was behind me...i suddenly saw that his car was parked beside my car!!!!!!! His car opened and i clicked my alarm 2...when he heard my car clicked he suddenly said, "oi, magkatabi pa pla tayo." argh!!!! I was so stupid...i couldn't remember what i said i think i just said 'ditto' and smiled or i didn't said anything! Man...i was so stupid...i can't even remember if i bid his goodbye. Talk about almost surviving that moment with flying colors then i gotto screw it up at the last minute.
i definitely couldn't believe what just happened. We talked for awhile before but it was just a few exchange workds. This was definitely a "turning point". This was a different moment. It was just the moment when he was the one who initiated the conversation with me! It totally blew my mind! While driving home...i just can't wipe off the big smile in my face. I was out of my mind and I just want the feeling to never go away. (^__^)
