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piCtuRes of MeH
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Ma. Romillie
Mae Lu
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i really don't know what i'm gonna do. i've thought about it last year but maybe i was just saying it but not really meaning it. what am i talking about? join a group of "talented" SS&E students at school. it all started yesterday when we attended the SS & E Division Orientation Day. I honestly got jealous of Sandy and JC when their group...the Subdominant 7 (it's a choir for our school...they sing gospel songs...they're pretty good.) performed. it hit me that these guys are active in school activities and they've got time burned by practicing and doing what they love and here i am watching ang feeling envious because i'm a chicken shit and doesn't have the courage to join these kind of group. it occured to me that i'm not as active in school now that im in college as i was when i was in high school. i mean, when i was in high school...i was almost everywhere with my friends...we would sometimes go home really late coz we'll practice or do some stuff.
When the Sidak (i think this is the spelling or whatever) performed i was so interested that i thought i wanna join them. then they announced that they'll have an audition...i think it'll be this Saturday and i'm so atta lost. what am i to do? i like dancing and for me..it's my "passion" as compared to singing (^_^)! but how come im so scared and i feel embarassed just thinking about it?
Sandy and JC gave me a little prep talk this afternoon...they're the only ones who knows im planning to do this crazy thing!!!! i'm so shocked that im actually embarassed and scared to try out for this audition. my last audition was when i was in 3rd yr high school for the cultural show...i was accepted there but now...im so scared that i'll be rejected. i'm actually pursuading sandy to join me in audition.(kelangan ng karamay! wahehe) waahh!!! what's goin on with me!? Can anybody recommend a Confidence Booster!?? wahehe.i need it so badly. i'm still banging my head on the wall whether i should audition for this or i'll just graduate thinking 'what if'!?? i guess..i also don't wanna assume that i'm good at dancing...i don't know..i just love dancing but im not sure if dancing really loves me? the last time i actually performed infront of a huge crowd was last year on Duna's debut i think...it's been a long time and i'm starting to lose my old self.
can this audition change my life? can it bring me back to the old active mae~an at school? can it make me or crush me? can it ruin my plans of improving my grades? i don't know...i definitely have no idea and it's driving me crazy!!!! again...my indecisive self is taking over me and it's actually killing me big time!!!!! crap!
When your schedule sucks, laugh it off.
When all your plans didn't push through, laugh it off.
When you can't sleep early, laugh it off.
When you wake up late for school, laugh it off.
When you're already flying your car instead of driving it to school, laugh it off.
When you can't find a nice parking space, laugh it off.
When you'll have to walk a long way from your car to school, laugh it off.
When you come to your classes late, laugh it off.
When you see people you don't wanna see at all, laugh it off.
When you feel your day was a total waste just sittin 'round at school, laugh it off.
When you arrive at a meeting late, laugh it off.
When you acted goofy aka a totally GEEK infront of your crush, laugh it off.
When there's a live 'drama' that is goin' on around you, laugh it off.
When you realize your wishing your life's like the drama series you watch, laugh it off.
When you realized your losing your friends one by one because they're starting to fall in love, laugh it off.
When you realize you'll not even falling in love anytime soon, laugh it off.
When you're dreaming bout an ideal person you'll fall in love with & you know it may not happen, laugh it off.
When you realize you've got a long way to go, laugh it off.
When you're totally bored that you started planning your life for the next 2 yrs, laugh it off.
When you're starting to act and think not the way that you do, laugh it off.
Laughing it off may not be the greatest solution in life.
But it works for me in the time being.
My life is not that great now, but i'm pretty happy and quiet contented to reflect and think about it now.
This year is my improvement year...a year that i'm goin to improve myself, to make myself better not for others but for me.
Get myself together and be the person i want to be.
But for now...as i 'reflect' on these things...the only the thing for me to do now is...
Laugh it off Dammit 'coz that's the best i can do now!!!!! (^__^)
hmm..just wanna share a little incident that happened to me this afternoon at a restaurant that's only a walking distance by our school. It's a restaurant/internet cafe/ little grocery store. wahehe...there's also a dormitory upstairs. Anyways, i was buying some snacks for me to bring to school, when i was about to pay at the cashier who is also the owner of the whole place. She asked me if i was also buying the c2 drink..i said "Opo" take note: she was speaking to me in English! I thought that's just how she speaks..i dunno..wahehe...maybe she was practicing or something dba!?? then she asked me if i would want a cellophane for the stuff...i, again told her in tagalog that "wag nalng po". when i was leaving the cashier...i heard her say to the guy beside her "I thought she was a foreigner!(w/ an embarassed tone)" man!!!!! i couldn't control myself from laughing when i was walking towards my friends. I was quite embarassed for what happened but it was so funny that i was laughing when i told my friends!!!! kainis lng coz hindi na me tantanan ng mga friends ko coz they were all teasing me already. gaga pa tlga si Cheng...she was planning to trick other employess in that places and she was telling me to start speaking english na when we'll go back! bwahehe. when i told my brother that story..he couldn't believe it and was quite shocked..wla lng..kakatawa lng tlga..o dba? akalain kang estrangehero sa sarili mong bansa (*deep*)!???? laugh trip!!!! (^__^) i remembered tuloy what happened to me in Hong Kong last year...we were walking by the Kowloon Bay...overlooking Hong Kong Island...a group of girls walked towards me and speaking to me in Cantonese (i guess) and if my understanding wasn't wrong..they were asking me to take a picture of them. But i was so shocked when they approached me that all i can do was nodded and wave my hands to tell them i can't understand and i walked closed to my mom! bwahehe...i looked stoopid but give me a break, i was nervous alright!! wahehe.(^__^) *just curious though what the owner of the place though my nationality was!?? hmm...should go back there!! bwahehe...joke! wahehe*
ADVANTAGES: DISADVANTAGES: Omg! School's about to start. As any NORMAL student would be...i'm not excited at all for the coming semester. There's nothing exciting to see...i never even had the feeling of missing going to school. Most students would be sad goin back to school because they'll have less time in goin out on gimmicks with their friends of just bumming out at home bein a couch potato. Well...that was me before (around 3 yrs ago) but now...i'm just sad to be parting ways with my pc for a few hours. Yeahh...this is soo not normal anymore. I'll just "waste" my time sitting here infront of the pc and doin a LOT of stuff (well..for me that's not a waste!). I believe my ass' gone big because of all the sitting here for hours!!!! I am truly obssess with my pc and my bestfriend...DSL.(^__^)
I have mentioned before that i am a born techie. Now, i've discovered a new description for myself...well, i've thought about this term while i was talking with my cousin, Liaa, who is a Computer Science graduate that we are "technologically advanced." wahehe..way to go get a nicer description ayt!?? wahehe. Anyways, i have been encountering things ever since i've been hooked with my pc. There are a lot of advantages and disadvantages in being "technologically advanced." i know...i'm not alone because my cousin also experience these things.
1. No one's gonna bother you when you're infront of the pc even if it takes you hours.
2. You can get away in talking into your parents in buying a lot of gadgets for your pc (ie. web cam, scanner, microphone, big speakers, new printer and a lot more!!)
3. You can make your own business. ( will talk about it in the next entry.ü)
4. You can find friends from different places.
5. You can save money because you'll be stuck infront of the pc that you don't wanna go out.
6. You won't feel dumb even if it's break from school coz you'll learn a lot of things from the internet. (charmus!)
7. You'll feel good when you've done some favors for your family or friends like (doin layout for blogs/website or downloading stuff)
8. You feel smart when you fix something that you don't normally know.
9. Your creative side will totally be challenged.
10. You'll be grammatically challenged especially in blogging.(^__^)
1. When there's something wrong with the pc...all fingers directly point at you!
2. If anyone in your family got a problem with their pc..they automatically bug you to check it out and fix it even if it can be fixed by using their common sense.
3. If you don't know what's wrong...foreheads crumples and immediately think you're dumb to not know what's the hell wrong with their pc!
4. You get a LOT and i mean a Lot of orders from your family to scan this, print this, email this, attach this, type this, download this, burn this, that you'll have no time for your own.
5. You're ass would get huge. (^__^)
6. You'll have headaches for staring at the screen too long.
7. You'll get totally obssessed that you'll get lost of time and you'll suddenly hear birds chirping outside to tell you that you gotta go to sleep coz it's already morning!! wahehe.
8. Sometimes, you'll find yourself having no more social life.
9. You'll forget that you haven't taken a bath yet! bwahehe.
10. You'll forget to eat lunch or dinner.
no...it's not the latest drug that's hit right now for the Gen-Ys. it's not a new line of fashion. it's not a cool game gadget released by Sony. it's not a product of technological advancement (i.e. cellphone, digital camera, pc, ipod/mp3). it's not even another wild idea of a reality show. this is the latest obssession that every Gen-Ys and even Gen-Xs are sooo into. Yes...just the simple Vanity that some people immediately think of Paris Hilton and Nicole Ritchie as they hear this word. but haven't you even thought about what the heck are your camera phones for?? look up your folders...is there just a certain folder in that phone of yours are collections of just your pictures? or even that atleast a couple of pictures of yourself are flooding your "pictures folder/gallery"? yes? wahehe. my guess is right. Vanity is the greatest obssession everyone is into.
This is a confession of a full fledge vain person. yes..i am vain. i may not wear make-up, heck! i don't even know how to put it on my damn face! (^__^) i may be more comfortable wearing flip-flops and sneakers rather than high heels or sandals. i own more t-shirts than sleeveless shirts or other blouse. i don't go crazy that i gotta spray on perfume before goin out of the house. but these are not all just the basis of being a vain.
i found the way to make a person go crazy of oneself without even knowing it! wahehe...honestly, i just figured it out myself. looking at my folder in my pc...i found myself shocked at all the pictures that i took for just a couple of months. i even realized that i have a lot of photo albums online of myself than i have pictures on our family photo album! i have totally become a vain person! yess...it is quite a surprise for me because a couple of years ago, my parents can't even make me smile for the camera or i even hide from my dad while he's turning on the camcorder. i don't even know how to smile while taking a pic. what happened? what turned me into this person who collects her own pictures? wahehe. i blame it on the camera phones that were released years ago , the digi cams that makes our patience be at ease by eliminating the horror of waiting for the 'develops' and ruined negatives, the nonstop networking (i.e friendster, multiply, myspace & etc) and of course, blogging. (^__^)
for me, this is not a bad thing at all. i believe this is just a normal phase. but there is also just the fine line between that and it might go too far. taking pictures of yourself may be your own happiness and no one can do anything about it but we should also be responsible on how to handle it. what am i talking about? with this vanity we indent not to only take pics of ourself but also us with others. we should also be responsible on this matter because we don't know what could happen. also, posting our pictures on the web may be taken by other people so we should also be careful that strangers may do something horrible with it and it'll be totally scary!
ohh..yes..gifts, gifts, gifts...wahehe..but that wasn't everything on my birthday. the true gifts that i have are my family and friends. (^__^) i didn't even expect them to give a gift...especially from my friends! wahehe. but some of the gifts really made me appreciate my friend...some made it themselves...others gave things that they know fit me even if its not expensive...it really doesn't matter becauseas long as im with them to celebrate my bday with...i'm truly gifted. the only gift that i personally asked was the iPod! bwahehe...i got that a month in advance but man..i was sooo contended. my brother gave me a patrick star pillow..wahehe...i love watchin spongebob squarepants (who doesnt!???) and i love spongebob & patrick star! wahehe. when i look at that pillow..i remember my brother. yah...they kinda like have a resemble something. wahehe. (^__^) my mom bought me 2 cute blue (of cors) blouse, a crop blouse (i dnt really know if thats what its called. wahehe.) and a pouch. my sister and her bf gave me a blue (yahh..im such a blue girl!) skirt and a handbag.
yah..today's my birthday. well, it's almost over. i never expected that i'd be this happy today. i was dreading this day because i'm now 19 years old! a year to go and it's goodbye teenhood.=c i'm happy today because things happened that i never expected. around 11:30pm last night, the texting never stopped. people kept on greeting me and it was truly a shock for me. my close friends and relatives know me that i have a problem in remembering others birthdays and so i wasn't expecting others to remember mine but it was truly a big shocker for me that even people i never expected to greet me actually greeted me and it touched my heart. (^__^)
even though i lack of sleep today..i only slept around 3-4hrs because my mom woke me up coz my relatives from manila called her up to greet me. it was pretty funny though because i really wasn't myself yet coz my mind was still sleeping honestly! wahehe. after a talk with a lot of relatives on the cell i couldnt sleep anymore. my mom left after a few minutes to buy lunch and a cake. man...waking up early was a real pain! there were a lot of people ringing the doorbell like information from the village, opening the gate and there was a guy who went to our house and was asking were our van was. he was working for the mercedes benz and he was looking for the van that we used to have. i told him that it was already sold and so he asked where to contact my dad so he could info *blah,blah* duh! i was still not in my senses that time..i didnt realized i gave him a wrong number!!!! wahehe. after he left did i realize that i didnt even know where the heck did i came up with that phone number. when i told my mom what happened she was laughing at me and told me that i really was not myself because i lack sleep! wahehe.
tonight...we went to Lotus Court at the Marco Polo hotel. my choice of course..wahehe..i was craving for Chinese food!!!!!! (^__^) yum! yum! we also had a free bottle of wine and a cake to bring home! my sister isnt here in davao so we had a representative..her boyfriend. it was bonding for all of us and it was really fun because we were having loads of fun!!!!!! (^_^) this was a day i thought would be lonely for me but yet...celebrating it with my family is so much fun and i truly appreciate it a lot.
yah...tomorrow's my birthday...but how come im not psyched bout it?!! i know...it'll be my last year of teenhood. it a different feeling for me now because whenever my bdays coming, i'll be soo excited and be ranting about it. hmmm....but im pretty bummed now because when i think about it...i'll be 20 years old next yr! damn!!! im getting old! it felt like only yesterday that my sister were calling me and my friends "pre-teens". funny huh?? to quote my cousin RR: "How time fast!" wahehe. just a little humor so my entry wont be too dramatic! wahehe.(^__^)
but hey, im still happy that it's my birthday coz its the day that a beautiful, charming and nice gal came to this world. bwahehe...dont even try to argue with that...it's my birthday so let me slide this time! wahehe. (^_^). anyways...i gotta go now coz my mom and i will be goin out now...wahehe....hold-uping time!!!! this is the best thing about having my birthday..wahehe..shop! shop! shop! (^__^)
Oh...yeah!!! finally the layout's all done. i've been dreading to finish this layout. i kept changing my mind and i don't seemed to be satisfied with my work but at last...i finally made a decision and finished it!!!!!!!!!! hooorayyy. (^__^)
mumay, sandy, andy and i went to paradise beach resort in samal island today. well, it was actually a barkada gimik but jill and bon2 couldn't make it and jb was out of town so it was the 4 of us AGAIN!!! (^__^)
it was a fun day even though it was just the four of us there. as usual...never a dull moment and we did our ritual...making fun of ourselves! wahehe. armed with my favorite gadget (digicam), there was non-stop picture taking. wahehe.
of course, whenever there's barkada...there's always a blooper/embarrassing moment. wahehe. sandy, as usual.."nagkalat" wahehe...it was actually the both of us who was singing "Ikaw ang lahat sakin" because we were teasing mumay (a replica of claudine baretto) but sandy's voice so loud that it was obvious that i was singing with her.ü we were in the water while mumay was at the shore and she told us after that sandy's voice was soo loud that the people at the shore was looking at our direction! wahehe. (^__^)
that afternoon, we decided to rent a board for the 4 of us to ride. but as smart as we are...we rode it while were in the water so it was soo hard to balance. we all fell a couple of times. mumay was sooooo funny because when andy, sandy and i already fell from the board and it was tilting sideways..mumay was still grabbing the board tightly so she was also tilting...she was grabbing it for dear life because she doesn't want to get wet because the sunblock has to stay for 15 mins.we were laughing so hard because she looked liked a totally doofus! (^__^)
the biggest blooper was me! i turned totally RED!!! my face and shoulder was soar because i got sunburn!!!! huhu...this is why i hate the SUN! damn you!!!!!!!! it was my fault though because i felt asleep while the 3 of them was getting the board. when they got it, they woke me up and i struggled to put the sun block on my face and back...i even putted a lot but i was so excited that i jumped on the water. the sunblock won't work at all because it has to stay on the skin without getting wet for a couple of minutes!!!! waaaaahhhhh.....when we got home, they were calling me Mr. Krabs because i was sooo red! huhuhuhu.
